Today I joined two operations with Dr. F. at Wake County Hospital and Duke University Hospital.
It's very exciting to be here with him.
Dr. F is very tough, upright and interesting person. He can be very funny too.
He speaks broken English, kind of Japanese English, but everyone listens to him tryng to understand what he says carefully, because he speaks without hesitation and with bright confidence, and that everyone there knows he's somebody with firm skills and achievements. After all it's not the matter of how fluen you can pronounce nor how much score you get on English tests. People try to understand you when you have something they respect.
I've never seen a Japanese person like him working and functioning so well in American society. I really admire him for that.
I have a dream of working in USA as a doctor in future, and now I see the way and the ideal model for that.

I arrived here, Raleigh Durham in North Carolina, yesterday.
I'm with a friend who offered me this chance to come and stay with a great neuro surgeon Mr. F.
Mr. F has been working in here as a professor at Duke Medical University and practices surgeon at many hospitals like Duke University Hospital. He also owns his office here to perform perform independent operations.

I joined two operations as an observer today.
It was the first time for me to actually see the surgic operation. I never thought I could do this, definitely not in the US.
I' m so impressed to see that, with a Japanese doctor literally running the whole operation as one of the best neuro surgeon in the world.
It's awesome! It's enlightening!

小さな象をつなぐ杭と、大きな象をつなぐ杭は、まったく同じ杭だという。
子供の頃に「がんばっても無駄だ」と思い知らされると、成長して力強くなってもずっと「がんばっても無駄だ」と思いこんでしまうからだ。

同じように、人間をかたちづくる過去の束縛は計り知れない。

杭につながれた大きな象に、「君はそんな杭なんて簡単に引っこ抜けるんだよ」と教えてあげたとして、果たして象は意気揚々と逃げ出すだろうか。
杭の外の、未知の世界に突然飛び込むよりも、杭の中の、狭いけど長年見知った世界に甘んじる方を選ぶかも知れない。

同じように、人は現状より悪くなることをおそれる一方で、現状より良くなることをも密かにおそれている。


個を不自由にするこうした思いこみやおそれは、全て脳内の幻想にすぎない。
「自我」や「世界」に対する妄想が、人を無力に不自由にする。
そうした妄想を抱くことなく適切に「行動」することによって、物事は変えるチャンスを、誰しもがもっている。

世の中には数多くの先入観、集団的妄想が渦巻いているが、最終的に人を定義づけるのは現実の生き様であり行動に他ならない。少なくとも自身についてはそうでありたい。